silence & you

I've been thinking. Thinking about silence.
I find myself comfortable with it. The introverted bit of me craves it. I have sat in rooms with people who are the opposite, who feel the desire to fill the silence with mindless chatter. Sometimes, in those moments with those people, I, to be quite frank want to say shut up would you. Yet, I have a bigger mind than mouth when it comes to speaking my thoughts, which is good.
But what's so wrong with silence?

It allows you to sit with YOU.

Sitting with yourself, a scary thought because in that moment you have to face yourself.

photographer: stellan herner

Sometimes I sit on the couch or at the kitchen table and simply be. And in that moment I am doing nothing, literally nothing. I stare at the wall. The wall I tell you. Who sits and stares at the wall?

We all have things to do, places to be, and people to call. We have so much to do. Guilt creeps in when we find ourselves sitting and doing nothing. Guilt is beside me when it is just me and the open room. Guilt for what I should be doing and who I should be.

Sit. Alone in a room. Who does that?

But you want to know a secret. We have to do that. We are human beings so plugged into the world, so overwhelmed with lists that are pages in length. Overwhelmed by the cluttered agenda book filled with places to be and people to attend to. The list of to-do's will only continue increase in length.
It is time to stop and stare, to sit there. Yes, sit there my friend. It will serve you well.

We have to be comfortable with ourselves in an open room. We have to, how else are we going to know who we are? Be comfortable in who we are? We have to overcome the guilt we feel and the only way to do that is to face it.

We have to be comfortable with ourselves in a silent room.

For a moment forget the people, the places, and sit. Disconnect from the chaos, and connect with yourself. You have to, for you.